Learning from the recovery

Get reborn again

The story of Xin Rong – Life can be rebuild

The understanding of Yuan Zhi

The understanding of Yuan Zhi

Completely recovery from Depression

As we all know, psychogenic depression cannot be cured only by medication.
I have helped one depression sufferer to completely recover from depression.
Here are my measures taken:

1. Correction of all the wrong cognition, it is a comprehensive and systematical project. I managed to help her realize so many excellent qualities which she used to neglect, through this project, she began to show confidence.
2. Help her to find a job in which she can exert her qualities and capabilities, this is a very important practice, through this practice, she gradually realized she was valuable, so correction of cognition will only work during practice rather pure counseling. ( the practice should be customized according to different persons, blind using of the same method on every sufferer is not permitted )
3. The most important project: Deal with various symptoms, including “the feeling of failure”, “don’t know how to maintain good relationship with others”, “constant depression” etc. In this project, western therapy such as Cognitive Therapy and Behavior Therapy will not work here, so I chose some Oriental Therapies such as Buddhism, Taoism, and Japanese Morita Therapy (still we should customize this project according to specific sufferer). Through this project, I managed to help her to realize such bad feeling cannot be escaped by making any efforts consciously, it can only be explained by some theories in Buddhism. At last, she knew that “all the suffering is yourself, you will never escape from yourself, you have to live with it", by knowing that, her symptom becomes alleviated, and finally completely gone.
4. Depression broke into her mind any time without any omen, so timely correction and counseling is a must. Usually as soon as she encountered the feeling of depression, she called me for counsel at once. After listening to her narration, I point out the wrong cognition in her mind and instruct her the right one. Generally when the wrong cognition was corrected, her mood will be good again.
5. Therefore, by repeatedly taking project 4 and project 3, after half a year, she completely recovered and take a new look. In her own words “ The 10 years’ nightmare is over”.
6. different people should be treaded differently according to their specific condition, blind using the same project on all the people is not permitted.

Complete Recovery from OCD

I was a timid, sensitive and suspicious person in my childhood, I dared not speak to the opposite sex, I always feel anxious and nervous then, and it all bursted out as OCD at the age of 11.
One day, one of my classmates pointed at my nose and said: “Oh, you have a very big nose.” Upon hearing his words, I had a negative feeling, I thought my nose is abnormally big and then I felt I was a freak because my nose was much bigger than that of others. From then on, I began to pay closer and closer attention to my nose and every day what I thought of is to escape from the thought that “my nose is abnormally big”, see, I wanted to defeat myself by eliminating that kind of thought, I cannot tolerate it and live with it. And as time went by, the OCD has been generalized, I met more and more problems. I was unable to concentrate in class because I felt other classmates were looking at me and worried how would they judged me, and I am scared when walking on the street because I felt a traffic accident would happen on me anytime, mentioned above is only a small part of all my weird thoughts, during that time, I am preoccupied with various strange and repeated thoughts, I tried to disarm them, but the harder I did, the more tightly it followed me, the more afraid I was of it, the more severe it was. There is no study and recreation left in my life only pain and despair.

My first formal psycho-treatment started at the age of 18, I had struggled with it myself for so long, I thought I really needed some professional help then, I was not willing to live this way on. I told my parents all about my condition, and they decided to take me to a psycho therapist though they didn’t understand what my problem was. My first therapist prescribed me seroxat and did nothing in psycho counseling. After taking medicine for some time, I didn’t think medication could help me, so I turned to another psychotherapist, I felt lucky I met a senior psychologist in OCD then, he hospitalized me and he told me to “let the symptoms be there and do what you should do”, for example, when I was worried of being run into by a car when walking on the street, he told me think this way, “ I don’t care, if death is unavoidable, I can do nothing about it.” and meanwhile continue to do what I should do, like normal study and recreation. At that time, I was suffering from insomnia, I was unable to sleep because I was haunted by unstoppable and repeated thoughts. One night, my mother wept beside my bed, she said to me:” Son, I would rather bear all the suffering for you if I can, I pray that God can transfer all your pain to me.” I also wept: “mother, I don’t need you to bear my pain, I only wish that I can recover soon and wish my family is a happy and healthy one, and I also wish all the people who are suffering from OCD in this world can recover. That night, I wept all my inhibited suffering out and felt quite relaxed, and I slept so well until the next morning.

With the guidance from that senior psychologist and the medication as an auxiliary approach, I felt my OCD has been relieved and those haunting thoughts gradually left me. After leaving the hospital, I felt so happy, I thought I was going to live a totally new life.

But weeks after that, I felt that demon came back to life again, OCD recurred, it felt like I had never been cured, everything was like before. I felt there is no hope to cure OCD then, but I didn’t give up, I believed that this mental cancer can surely be killed.

In 2004, I chanced to read the article posted by Mr. Heixi in a psychology forum, what made him special was that he himself had been a sever OCD sufferer and completely recovered by self-help, then he summarized a series of therapies named “oriental philosophy therapy”, and his counseling mode also sounded unique, so I talked with him for 3 hours, and impressed by his sincerity and confidence. And then I decided to join Heixi Therapy.

Because I lived in the different city with Mr.Heixi, so I could only communicate with Mr.Heixi by phone, just like what Mr.Heixi said, the effect was the same, the most important thing you should do in counseling is to trust your therapist, follow his advice and take action to practice, if you don’t practice, you will never escape from the hell. After half a year, I had totally recovered from OCD.

Here are some of my experienced shared during the counseling:
First month: Mr. Heixi told me to stop any treatment, and do whatever I like, live a happy life, making friends, play games, in short, stop consciously treating or trying to escape from my OCD and live the life I wish for. So I calmed down and thought what my favorite hobby is, what I have missed due to my OCD in my life. I used to think I could only live the life I wished for unless I beat the demon OCD, actually these viewpoints were wrong, we are able to immerse ourselves in life any time, life is ubiquitous. I take action to live a life I used to wish for, of course, during this process, I was continually haunted by those thoughts, and I would call Mr. Heixi any time necessary, and he would correct my behavior and thoughts in time, and then I continued to live my life.

Life is full of sorrow and joy, we OCD sufferers are a group of sensitive and weak people who tend to only accept joy in and repel sorrow and pain, actually sorrow as well as joy wouldn’t last for ever, just like the weather, it wouldn’t be always sunny or always rainy. We should treat life with a positive attitude whether we meet sorrow or joy.

The most important advice I got from Mr. Heixi is that life is the best medication, but don’t blindly apply it to your condition.

Another experience gained from counseling is like a tug-of-war game, life is on one side while OCD is on the other side, more life will lead to less OCD, when you become life-centered, OCD will be defeated. But if you sit there all day, thinking how to cure your OCD, you will never jump out of this malignant cycle, because all of your attention was gathered there, which makes the excitement point bigger and bigger. There is no perfection in this world, imperfection is the real perfection.

I would like to give you all an advice, if you are a severe OCD sufferer, you would better find a professional and experienced therapist, he will lead you directly to the destination without wasting precious time of your life.

Sincere appreciation for Mr heixi ‘s kindness and help

I am so lucky that I can sit here in a light mood, feeling the breeze from the fan, writing something about myself, as the monster who tantalized me severely is far away from me now.
I had already been thinking that I was a born loser, for the failure on both studies and work. Moreover ,I was neither a good-temper person nor a communicative person, so I was living in embarrassment and suffering . Today I am looking back my life, I can say that the most important thing is your attitude towards life. What will bring you happiness is your way to deal with people and affairs.
I suffered social phobia from the April of 2000, when I was 22. The main reason is my psychological tense. At that time, my boss was not an easygoing person, who could be easily irritated. Then I was living an uptight life because I really didn’t want to lose this job.
I dared not communicate with others face to face. Once I got some strange feeling when I saw one’s eyes on the way home, then I was worried that what I should do when I was looking at other’s eyes next time in social communication. As time went by, I got this problem whenever I was looking at one’s eyes. This is so-called eyesight anxiety disorder .Now when I looked back, I feel my feeling at that time was ridiculous, how illogical it was! However at that time this became the fuse of my social phobia, from then on I was living in great pain . why this would happen I thought it was because I was under great pressure then. Even when I got uptight ,I was unable to find a way to let it out (for instance: talk to your friend) . This is something like the elastic band, if you pull it too hard ,it will be broken.
I used to be a salesman, you can imagine the difficulty for a person who suffered social phobia to do sales .But I had to do as I was poor and had no choice.(until April of 2002 I resigned)

I can not find the right words to describe my suffering . I was an ambitious person. I was thought to be a strong-willed person by all relatives and families. I was helpless to the sudden barrier of communication. And the internet is not so popular as today, so I didn’t know how to get help from internet or through other means ,even not a friend for me to talk to. I thought that I was a sinful, useless freak. The only thing I could do is to write my diaries of these sufferings. I was not even knowing that I suffered from psychological disorder but only knowing that I got some problem, so I didn’t resort to others Later on, I got another panic, this was a mental disorder related to saliva. I was afraid that I would salivate when I talked to others, also worried that others would also salivate when heard my saliva voice. What the hell was such disorder So terrible panic. From 2000 April to 2001 , I was suffering my darkest time in my life. I can still remember that several times I stood on the roof of my house , looking at the stars in the night sky, suffering great pain from the bottom of my heart. I didn’t know why I had to be punished like this , I really wanted to jump down and committed suicide. But I thought of my parents, who bred me with lots of painstaking efforts, I couldn’t choose this easy way to end my life, I was living with this support.
In the July of 2001, I experienced a great turning point in my life, I went to a temple, where I learned Buddhism for a month. After that , I began to think over my life ,my attitude towards life, and changed my wrong concepts. In this process, I started to evaluate myself correctly, I would not go extreme as I used to do, I would never experience the malignant and painful cycle, would never complain about myself, complain about the society and complain about the living environment, also would never do useless things.
As during the whole life, you may encounter all kinds of difficulties. What will you do to deall with all those barriers Be defeated or challenge it . what can we do when we face it I think we should confront the difficulties but need to ask whether I did wrongly, what method can help me solve the problem, or where I can get help to overcome it . only in this way, can we be standing until the end , can we walk out from the social phobia and other mental suffering.
I can say this method of thinking helps me a lot . There is a rule in Marxism philosophy ,that is from superficial change to essential change . In order to get the essential change ,you should accumulate the superficial changes ( namely the change in quantity will finally lead to the change of quality). After leaning the Buddhism, I am challenging myself to get more superficial changes which can be helpful for social phobia.
In the year of 2002, I resigned and started to do self-study at home. From 2003, I got help from internet gradually , such as psychology consultation website, and other websites and psychological communities. Also I made some useful phone calls. In the second half of 2003, I bought a disc with some friends from an American psychological doctor, and started to know cognitive-behavioral therapy, and also put it into practice in life. These helped me to some extent to ease me in social communication.
From 2004 I started to work in B city. Here ,I began to contact some of my friends who also suffered social phobia, one of them named F gave me lots of help.. F also got eyesight anxiety disorder. We got together to discuss ways of solving problems and started to practice eyesight exercise face to face according to the learned Behavior Therapy. After that ,I felt better than before, and I was more confident , but still can got completely recovered.
Later on, F told me that he once viewed the Mr Hexi’s article, and he recommended it to me . I also thought it was good and called Mr Heixi, but at first I had no confidence that he was able to give me more helps.( previously I hadn’t visited any psychological doctors, as all of my friends had told me that psychological doctors wouldn’t help you much) And Mr He xi is in shanghai ,far away from B city ,where I lived. Was he be able to make counseling by phone calls I thought it over for a long time.
And at that time, I could feel that I would reach the essential change (change in quality) ,but still I was not self confident, I didn’t know how to reach that stage, and also I met some recurrence of my situation, still I was not confident to get rid of it completely. Finally I made up my mind to accept Mr Hexi ‘s treatment for two reasons: first, with his own experience , he could totally understand my feeling correctly, so these methods used might be more suitable for our symptoms ,and also I could feel his kindness and sincerity from phone call, Second , I was unable to get rid of social phobia by myself , I need somebody’s help, especially when I was in this critical state, I need someone to pull me out of this abyss, so I made this decision, everyone in life has to make some big decision, it is like a gambling, if you always hesitate about your decision, you will get nothing in your life.
The following treatment is successful, during the next weeks I called twice or 3 times to Mr Heixi, he told me some basic theories, the most import thing is to tell me how to practise, how to think, what I need to add into my mind, what I should think about when I am confronted with big difficulties, etc. He also told me some typical examples, which was helpful for my recovery. I would always return him with feedback and my feeling,? he would give me timely corrections. In this kind of communication, I could feel my great improvement on anxiety within two or three weeks. After that , I called him once per week, he gave me some new training plan and new conceptions . I am almost recovered within two month! I began my treatment from May of 2004, and in July I went back to my hometown, I got happy communication with all my relatives and friends, I couldn’t express how excited I was then .Anyway, I still felt the root hasn’t been eliminated completely, so I called Mr Hexi once per month, sometimes I called him to solve my remaining problems, sometimes I called him purely for chatting. I got completely recovered after half a year, the root has been plugged totally..

I sum up the reasons for quick recovery as below :
1. I suffered social phobia late when I was 22, if I could realize my problem earlier I would have got help earlier and would have recovered earlier, but the fact that I ignored it in the first place led to the difficulty in treatment. However just as I suffered from phobia attack late , so some wrong concepts were not deeply rooted in my mind, which was also helpful for my treatment
2. I tried my best to think over the Buddhism , then I can analyze myself deeply rather than superficially. I studied Cognitive- Behavioral Therapy and practice it with efforts ,which was helpful for my treatment.
3. The timely guidance and correction from Mr.Heixi . As psycho counselor is experienced and full of professional knowledge, which we are lacking in. And these also could lead us to recovery as soon as possible . Although the treatment from Mr Hexi was not too long , but it was critical for my recovery.

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Mr Heixi , it is a miracle!

Below is a case of a client who suffered social phobia and OCD for more than 20 years and now completely recovered under the guidance of Mr Heixi’s help (his letter ):
Excerpt is as follows:
“…… It is really a miracle, Mr. Heixi has made me feel happiness and ease only within 35days
I know there is a long way I need to run ahead, but I will try my best to do it under your guidance. Many thanks to your kindness and help.
 Case description:
This client is female, in the process of counseling, we have never seen each face to face, I just counsel her through phone, currently, although she hasn’t completely recovered yet, but according to her feedback and her comprehension capability, I think she will free herself soon.

Therapy Applied:
1. The essence of Taoism and Buddhism, step by step, guide her to accept herself.
2. Apply CBT and Morita Therapy as an auxiliary approach
Combination of east therapy and west therapy, alleviate the symptoms as well as eradicate the root.
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You will surpass Mr Morita!

 A case of successful treatment ?: a client suffering from OCD( obsessive-compulsive disorder) accompanied with agoraphobia for over 20 years wrote a letter of gratitude to Mr Hexi, excerpt is as below:
“People cannot diagnose themselves, they need high leveled sage. It is you! You will be greater than Mr Morita!

----this case is characterized by many kinds of compulsive thoughts and compulsive action, accompanying with closed space phobia (fear of airplane ,metro, train or elevator etc.) now the treatment is proved to be successful. The symptoms fade away and he can do whatever in the closed spaces such as airplane.

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Life is so beautiful!

Once I was a person who had extreme low self-esteem, I dared not see people in their eyes,
especially the opposite sex, I felt I was the ugliest and most stupid guy in the world. I
never stopped trying to find topic when I talked to others, seemingly talkative, but
extremely anxiously in my mind, once there was a lack of response from the listeners, I
thought I was to blame for that. Usually I would see my face in the mirror for half a day,
thinking "how ugly I am”,” how can I live in this world with such freak-like face"; I could
not concentrate on what I am reading and doing, it was hard for my brain to absorb anything.
Visiting almost all the counseling centers in China doesn't make me feel better at all,
when I was in despair, I chanced to see Mr.Heixi's article on some internet forum, judging
from his article, I felt he was an honest and straightforward person, furthermore, in his
article, I saw "complete recovery", complete recovery? I had visited many psychotherapists
before, even the most famous of them dared not make such a commitment. Although I doubted
it, at least I saw some dim hopes in my future.

Then I visited Mr.Heixi and talked to him, after one month, I join in Heixi Therapy, to be
frank, I still could not convince myself that Mr.Heixi could save me from the mental
purgatory even at the time of joining, but I was touch by his confidence and sincerity, what
I trusted is this person rather than the therapy itself. During the whole process of the
therapy, i had visited Heixi almost 50 times and called him for almost 100 times, every time
I felt anxious or depressed, I would resort to Mr.Heixi for help, and his patient guidance
was always able to pull me out of suffering. This just made me recognize the advantage of
such counseling mode. Then after over one year's counseling and behavior training, I said
farewell to my nightmare-like past. I completely recovered, like that a boat which advanced
against countercurrent finally reached the harbor and got anchored, I would never fall back
into the abyss again, I can live freely without the guidance now.
Currently my brain is full of the design of my future, I have already wasted too much time,
I cannot waste anymore. I have a irresistible urge to pursue my dream and make my life
better.

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Learning from the recovery

I am happy father (nickname). Same as you all, I also wasted my precious youth on those “weird disease” (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder and social phobia). Totally, I used 8 or 9 years on treatment and finally recovered.

Of course, the first one I need to thank for is Mr. Heixi. As a early whole-process counseling patient in HeiXi Advisory Service Center, I got a very effective help from Mr. Heixi. This is the main reason of my recovery. Actually, from the beginning of my difficult life, I strongly hope to be a psychologist. This kind of dream is very simple. I think psychology is really mysterious and unfathomable.

After I came to work, I know about other kinds of job, such as financing, mechanical engineering and sales. I almost changed my mind once. However, I revovered finally. (I could not imagine it before) I finally understand: there are many people with the same problem as me are still suffering. I have the ability and wish to help them and save them! Although I am still young and I may not undestand all parts of psychology, I have the confidence to help those patients.

Because I have recovered from the illness completely, I understand what the patients think during each time of treatment. When I was learning from Mr. Heixi, I met many kinds of patients. I also helped some of their recovery in succession. Use my words to explain: treatment is use of my previous experience of recovery to lead them go through the process again. (Although every patients have different kind of situations, there are still some similar rules with it) Certainly, this recovery process must be full of difficulties, frustration and even despairation. All this problems are not troublesome as you compare with the happiness after recovery. 8 years ago, I was on the lowest point of my life. I was so despairing. I thought there was no end for this kind of life. Therefore, I past every day painfully. So much as I almost decide to end my life. I feel I was very stupid before. I won’t think like this again.

The fact proves that OCD can be treat.

Please don’t contest any more. Practice is the only standard to prove the truth. Look at yourself clearly. face yourself and accept yourself totally. By that way, you can grow like a cork…

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Get reborn again.

I was a psychopath. I deeply understand struggle, pain, oppression, unhappiness, and despairation that all the psychopath have ever faced. Heaps of times, I was in the hospital and took medicines. I have taken different types of medicines such as Dai Li Xin, Bai You Jie, Sai Le Te, You Ke, nostrum and so on. I have tried psychoanalysis, cognitive therapy, etc. These were all useless for me. I even became more and more painful. Therefore, my symptoms was getting more serious. I almost decided to be a nun. I also hoped that I can win 5 million RMB in a lottery and I can use all those money to treat my illness. I rather use my 20 years life or more to make exchange with 1 month happiness! My raletives and friends were not understand how troublesome were the symptoms. It afflicted my mind. It made me lose my confidence with chinese traditional psychotherapy totally. However, I didn't reconcile to pass my whole life so painfully. How miserable is that for my life! People can only fell the painfulness of neurosis when he experienced it. Because of that, he can understand the struggling in the hopeless situation.

When I felt extremely pain in my life, I knew a frined from Internet. His name is Chen Dong Sheng. His article was very attractive because he was a psychopath before. His every word shows my thinking! I trust him because we had too much things to talk. We have same life experience and illness. I asked him what made him recovered. He told me that a net friend helped him, but ?he didn't tell me the address of that net friend. Subsequently, my anxiety and Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder became very serious. I couldn't work and study regularly but only stayed at home!? Mr. Cheng is not a professional ?psychotherapist. He couldn't help me and felt afflictive. I still clearly remember what he told me, ‘The only way is ask him for help… He gave me my second life… He work for a best psychological organization in china… He is my friend, but usually he is very busy!’ Cheng Dong Sheng introduced his friend to me. As I was in the hopeless situation of my life, I met a teacher who changed my whole life—Mr. Han Fei. I remember that day, Mr. Han Fei told me about the Theory of Success, how did he get rid of neurosis, etc. I was so excited. I saw the hope from Han Fei. I understand I am not so strange and I am not lonely. There are many people with the same problem as me in the world… Mr. Han teached me a lot of ways and hoped I can get rid of it by myself. He helped me enthusiastic without paying. unfortunetly, because of my bad family relationship, my symptoms getting worse. I thought I can not live anymore. I thought of my hands every day. OCD and depression made me fail to save me by myself! Finally, I accepted the whole-process consultation by Mr. Heixi.

At the beginning 2 months, I suffered a lot! I felt Han Fei and Heixi cheated me! Can I recover by only a few words? Can this kind of life make my 8 years neurosis recover？then, my previous painfulness wasn't worth. I was so disappointed. I was cheated by Han Fei. They all cheated me! Even Han Fei also cheated me! This world is hopeless. I should not believe anyone. That night I felt despair. However, I still called Mr. Heixi! He only told me in a word, ‘you have no choice. These all are indelible…You are alright. Go to your life! take many exercise. Be the man that you want to be. Do whatever you want to do. Say whatever you what to say. Go wherever you want to go! Live the way you like. Make your life enrich! Not only do it but get it done. Let Mr. Wu Wei supervise you to do your homework!’ I followed the way to do, but it’s really difficult. I have no choice. I went for exercise. I went to running. I went to the park. I went to eat KFC. I went to the orphanage. As I ate KFC, at the same time, my symptoms appeared. I thought of my hands again. This time I weren’t try to avoid it. I told to it, ‘Hello, my dear friend. I like you. I hope you can with me and follow me every day.’ I looked at it every day. I watched over it in my mind… Later on, I really didn't think of my hands anymore. My painfulness also getting lesser. Perhaps, I understand admit which told by Mr. Heixi. I’d like to point out why some of the psychopath feel more painful after study the Morita Therapy. Bear with the pain, do the thing should be done! I think ‘bear with’ is not a proper word. ‘Bear with’ means exclude and fight with the symptoms but not real admit… I had depression also. When I felt depressed, I knew this is a very natural emotion. I have no way to change it. everybody feel the painfulness or anxiety. This is really common. After half year’s treatment, my rival (OCD) disappeared completely. I am happyer than before. I am more mature, adamant and steady-going. I’d like to thank Han Fei and Heixi again! They are important people in my life. They changed my life. They are my second parents! Thank you very much! This is all I want to say. Let’s keep communication with each other in the future again!

PS. I’d like to thank net friend Cheng Dong Sheng again. Without him, I won’t know Mr. Han Fei and Mr. Heixi. Thank you very much!!!!!

Attention: This letter was send by a young women with serious neurosis within these days. there was no modification on it. If need verification, you may ask for the agreement from the party. This? lady has been treated for around half years. Her social and psychological competence has been recovered basically!

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The story of Xin Rong – Life can be rebuild

Xin Rong was a young girl who troubled by Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, anxiety, depression and insomnia. By people’s help, my understanding and put a lot of efforts by myself, I solve the problem hardly. I become a psychotherapist! Life can be rebuild. I’d like to thank my teachers and friends that support me before. The society and my relatives helped me no longer to be a psychopath. From my special realize of life, love and marriage, I write down my painfulness of past several years as being a psychopath before and a psychotherapist now. From this deeply suffering and the price that I have paid for my whole youth, I decide to choose this job which can help people. I hope that I can help those psychopath get away from psychological suffering. The experience for every psychopath was my experience before. From the beginning we can not help it and feel the painfulness. We struggle and oppose for a long time. Talk to you make me feel like talk to myself in the past. Your every struggle make me remind my past experience all the time. I always kown how to reply when you seeking for help. As you have been improved, I can tell how you have been recovered.

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The understanding of Yuan Zhi

Yuan Zhi was a young man who suffered from Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder and social phobia. I could not see any hope from my life. I have many great dreams need to be come true, but I couldn’t fulfill it because of my illness. I struggled again and again, but I still failed to solve the problem. I have tried many kinds of psychotherapies, include cognitive behavior therapy, psychoanalysis and hypnogenesis. However, I couldn't get better by all those therapetuics. I was an animal that locked by a cage. I try to use my sharp claw and tooth to escape, but only left few shallow marks on the cage. I met Mr. Heixi by chance in 2004. During 1 year tutorship, I have been totally changed and released my soul. I feel free of my spirit and I become the real myself again now.

After I recovered, I realized that there are billions of people still cannot escape from the illness. Therefore, I decide to follow Mr. Heixi and offer my whole life to release those kind of people. During 1 year close training, field test and self experience, I also become a psychotherapist. After long peroid of training and the final test, I became one of the first group of psychotherapists that graduated from HeiXi Advisory Service Center. Yes, to be psychotherapists, our duty is delivery. We deliver people from Hell to Heaven by keep trying. We help them to know how to go through the path. Again we go back to Hell and help those people who lose themselves to Heaven. We try to aviod all the difficulties, reach their aims and return the life they lose. We should let them feel the way I feel “life is so beautiful.”

People like us are very common. We are not so shine like a expert or professor, but only the brothers and friends who had the same experience as you all before. We like common people that escaped from a virgin forest. We may not so profession to analyse the geographical conditions. We cannot use many kind of professional words to describe how dangerous is the dark forest. We only know where is the escape way, where is the obstacle that cannot be avoid and how to lead you escape successfully. The others are not important.

What we do are also common. We just help you to build a bridge from your state to a healthy state. We try to help you to pass the bridge and slowly aim the target.

We are not common, too. Every word you say talks about our past. Every time you struggle make us recall our mind. We always kown how to reply when you seeking for help. As you have been improved, I can tell how you have been recovered. We don’t emphasis on console and encourage, because wise cannot help you to avoid your problem. The way we can do is leading. When you reach the goal, you will not come back again.

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The healthy way of Meng Ran

In 1995, Meng Ran was a Sec. 3 student. Because her menory was quite good, she usually cared about her attention. When she repeated a lesson from memory to a politics teacher, she suffered Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. She always worried about it might occur during her study, so she puzzled all the time. Very soon, OCD affected her listening, studing, reading and even her communication with other people. She could not pay attention on television programs also. She always conflicted and fighted with herself.

After she went to the high school, the symptoms became more serious gradually. She could not avoid those strong disturb and it affected her study. Once she suspended her schooling and stayed at home. In her life, communicate with other people became more and more difficult. She could not communicate properly. At that time, Meng Ran thought only she suffered a weird disease that other people all didn’t have. She could not tell and describe it clearly! During this period, because of the weird symptoms, she almost visited all the famous hospitals in her county. She was diagnosed as neurasthenic. She has taken lots of normal medicines. Even so, Meng Ran felt this is not the illness that normal medicines can cured.

In 2003, as she was studying in a university, OCD slowly became Social Phobia because of the improper way of her treatment She felt nervous, restrictive and didn’t know what to do when she answered a question in public or faced a important people! Because of the symptoms became more and more serious, she started to read many psychological books. She realized her neurosis from Morita therapy. She went to a normal hospital and accepted orthodox psychotherapy, include medical therapy. However, her symptoms was still getting more serious again. She did not dare to move on the bus because she thought somebody was watching over her. She could not talk to people straightly. She didn’t like open her mouth. She was afraid to meet acquaintance because her unfriendly attitude might make them unhappy. Her emotion became worse, got dysthymia and she afraid lose her face, ect. These all are the symptoms of social phobia.

In 2004, Meng Ran accepted Disillusion Psychological Operation. From that, she understood her real problem.

In 2005 second half year, Meng Ran accepted Convalesce Psychological Operation Therapy. She had no ability to understand the real meaning of east psychology at that time, so she was still struggling.

By the end of 2005, Meng Ran couldn’t afford the strong painfulness brought by symptoms and it arosed tachycardia! , She come to HeiXi Advisory Service Center. Within this 2 years she didn't dare to go out of the door.. She stay at home past this period painfully. Subsequently, she went for herbalist doctor’s acupuncture.

In 2007 first half year, her symptoms became better! She didn’t reconcile to her faith, during this period she attended the training of Success Marine.

Now Meng Ran is on her way to the recovery.

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